`my champagne ambition.

2008-04-23T19:28:00.008+08:00

Hello Baby,
I found this pictures (:
& I wanna show them to you
<3 PIE

for you.

2008-03-31T02:57:00.002+08:00

I know now that the one and only person reading this is my beloved girl. No one comments, does not necessarily no one reads. (:

Don't worry about your computer, i'll settle it for you. I hope you sleep well tonight, don't let some meddlesome seniors trouble you. Some people are just plain unfathomable and you should just let them be. All you have to know, is that you got someone here who loves you and appreciates you for the person you are.

And thank you for feeling likewise towards me. Thank you for loving me. <3

Love.

whimsical.

2008-03-04T10:02:00.000+08:00

hello world! guess what guess what! i've decided to start blogging once and again, but like always, i'm not sure when this whim will last till. :D

and the first thing i want to say is... i resolve to be a better boyfriend.

been spending quite a lot these few months, mostly on my computer. but i'm super satisfied with it now, hopefully NO MORE bloody errors that has been plaguing it. shall post a picture of my rig when it's all tidy up and nice.

ah ah, i also have a beautiful desktop theme. i'm so proud of it. :D thanks to girlfriend for helping me with it. the object docks look great and i absolutely love my wallpaper. i'ma upload a screenshot when i get back from work tonight.

oh yeah, collecting a Coolermaster Mystique casing tonight. more fiddling with my com! (:

welcome back, aloy!

hero/heroine.

2007-12-11T14:08:00.000+08:00

It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud
This is how I do when I think about you

I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hold of my heart
You want to get inside, then you can get in line

But not this time
Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine

I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel and it's so surreal

I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and the skeletons
And I don't know why you'd even try

But I won't lie
You caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

And you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded.

this is girlfriend blogging!

2007-12-01T06:22:00.000+08:00

heyo. im so bored. im mapling (when no one is online) at 5am on the 1st of dec. since my boyfriend's too busy working to blog i shall do it for him (evil laughs). we caught hitman today with leslie. isnt' bad you know. i actually think he's quite a hot thing. im so tired and my eyes hurt but i can't sleep cuz there's 2x today and i want to hit lvl 100! kay i love my boyfriend! he's so nice to me! :) cuz he pampers me soo so much.

lunches with me during his lunch break
buys me things that i want (like my body shop set!)
drives me around :D
pays for my stuff :D :D
maples with me although i know he still thinks its dumb
brings me out on dates!
hugs me to sleep
gives me kisses on my forehead!
gives in to me :)
SHOWS THAT HE REALLY LOVES ME!

bwhahaha. i love you too. muacks. LOVE.

double-edge.

2007-11-22T12:54:00.000+08:00

the people who created the first computer virus should be shot in the genitals, raped by horses, drenched naked in water on a winter day and then made to run a half marathon on sharp nails, and then hung from a noose on the highlest level of the eiffel tower.

want my opinion?

fuck you.

thanks for making me reformat my computer thrice.

i'm tired of using technology.
so why don't you come sit down on top of me?

oops outta point.
bye.

DIE YOU VIRUS-CREATING FUCKERS!

heartbreak hotel.

2007-11-14T08:23:00.000+08:00

heartbreak.

one. i missed the BEPs concert.

two. i missed the LP concert.

three. it's pouring cats and dogs now and it's awfully great weather to sleep but i'm at work in the office.

four. i hate working for bosses who turn viciously nasty and unreasonable at least once every month.

five. i'm so damn sleepy.

six. i left my babypoog at home. ):

hey there gorgeous.

2007-11-02T14:51:00.000+08:00

Hello.

I've decided to blog in perfect English from now on. :D

And more importantly, my dad's company is importing high-end Korean cosmetics into Singapore, so come and buy and support okayyy! First counter at ISETAN Tampines Mall. Oh by the way, these are the brand ambassadors. (:

O HUI: skincare/makeup
The History of WHOO: skincare

love me jaded.

2007-10-31T10:06:00.000+08:00

why the hell did i put the ring back on my finger?

champagne ambitions and beer budgets.

2007-10-26T08:39:00.000+08:00

i think i'm finally getting acclimatized to working life. i'm not as tired as before, omg sleeping at 10 for once really does wonders huh!

anyways, have been super busy, coming up with ways to promote OHUI/WHOO. for those who don't know, these are 2 high-end brands of cosmetics imported from korea, and are on sale at tampines mall ISETAN. they're really very functional and very effective (that's my personal opinion okay i'm not hawking my wares here -_- i've personally tried the stuff). ANYONE FREE PLEASE COME DOWN AND TAKE A LOOK KAY? you'll make aloy so happy! :D

i just realised LG's the sponsor of fulham fc. z0mg. our partner in bringing in the cosmetics. lawl.

poogiewoogie!

my stupid pig likes to lie on her bed and mumble/giggle to herself. :D hahaha so cute lah. my pig used to have cute butt!! :D

stop mapling can! zzzz.

i wanna colour/highlight my hair.
pfftt!

vertigo.

2007-10-24T10:55:00.000+08:00

this is the first time i'm not falling asleep at work in the morning.

know why?

i found the secret.

i slept at 10 last night.

:D

it comes and goes.

2007-10-23T14:45:00.000+08:00

i @#$% hate weekday mornings. it's easier to scale everest than stay awake in office without letting anyone see that you're hopelessly dozing off.

i still have to go back camp. at least twice. sigh. waste of timeee! why can't i just bloody ORD in peace! pfftt!

arghh i've got a headache. unfortunately that's becoming a very normal thing for me. sighh. i miss the days when i can wake up at 2pm, i miss the days of at least 10 hours of sleep everyday. RAHHH!

kyla's so cute. she can chew and maul her toys until her tooth pops off. then she continues gnawing on her broken tooth until i snatch it away from her. -_- there's like a gaping hole in her gum with blood pouring outta it and she doesn't even feel it. dooots.

omg my life is that boring. this is all i've to blog about. omg. omggggg.

okay bye.

--> OMG BEN TAN YOU SLUT YOU PANGSEH ME FOR THE BEPs CONCERT THEN YOU GO WITH CARYN?! WTF YOUUU!! THAT'S IT.

three for the times you've been faking.

2007-10-10T13:42:00.000+08:00

SE-W960i, SE-K770i or Samsung U700?

rawr!

let me close my eyes and drift away.

2007-10-10T09:05:00.000+08:00

i swear, i will start to sleep before 12 on weekday nights.

i just came to office, it's been only and an hour, but it's already supremely torturous. i keep nodding off, succumbing to sleep. drinking milo, munching on biscuits isn't helping. argh i need some starbucks or coffee bean, any caffeine to perk me up!

things have changed indeed. i mean, no matter how much i try to deny it, work is taking its toll on me, on us. i'm always so tired and weary at night after work. i gotta sleep early and all. i haven't gotten a decent 8 hours of sleep in two weeks.

it's not supposed to be like that.

once in a little while.

2007-10-09T11:20:00.000+08:00

omgwtfbbq there's a rosyth group on facebook LOL.

and the funny thing is recognise alot of those names there, but i don't really remember knowing them. i'm the champion. but janice i remember, ben's ex and my pri 1/2 classmate! gosh i don't even remembered how she looked like then, but i just recognise her. -_- and hanling, i gave this dude money every recess 'cuz i didn't want my mum to find out i didn't eat for recess (but actually playing catching in the basketball court) by checking my wallet. -_- i was young and foolish okay!

aye my stupid babypoog made me wake up at 6, drive over to her house in morning rush hour traffic, at the risk of getting *bishpowpoofbam* by my boss/aunt, just to deliver my own slippers to her 'cuz hers were spoilt so that she can go to school.

well, it's 11.30am now AND SHE STILL HASN'T GOT OUTTA BED TO GO TO SCHOOL!!!

she's supposed to be in school by 9 by the way, till 5pm.

stupid pig if you're reading this don't call or text me! i'm really really very angry at you!! rahhh!!!

oh woeee.

2007-10-05T11:54:00.000+08:00

rain just got replaced as OHUI's brand ambassador.

WHAT
THE
FUCK.

note: at least kim a-joong's still there.

sweet dreams are made of these.

2007-10-05T09:17:00.000+08:00

ultimate heartbreaker.
well everything isn't always what it seems.

working life is sooo routine and monotonous. work 8-6, have dinner, watch some tv, play a game, then sleep. and this cycle repeats itself. no wonder all the adults treat the coming of every friday like the coming of christmas.

oh this reminds me -
THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY!! :D <3

can't wait for this weekend break, i really need it. slept an average of 4-5 hours a day this week. sigh. our problems have been keeping me up, and there's no resolution in sight. i just don't know what to do sometimes. i know it's hurting for you, well, it's the same over here. what we're doing now... it's exactly as you said.

God bless our cheating hearts and damn the lies.

[edit: vidic and evra are wicked sick.]

God bless our cheating hearts.

2007-10-02T08:03:00.000+08:00

it's been close to 5 days without a fight. and i'm thankful for that. she's been taking it pretty well after that last talk we had. basically i told her, there's no point brooding over it. i can stop work if she really wanted, but well, she didn't, because she says i won't be happy anyawys. and so we've decided to move on, stop living in the past.

baby i sincerely hope that you'd be really happy, and not putting up a strong front for me to see. i know sometimes you still get upset, still feel like crying, when you think about what we could have done.

i am sorry for putting you through this, but i really feel that we're becoming closer because of this. i had a wonderful weekend with you, i want many more of these weekends with you. it's true, when you love someone, you accept his/her flaws - they somehow complete you. it's been a frustrating period for us, but baby, let love in.

happy children's day poogie woogie! <3 (:

note: stupid babypoog's zeus just went beyond godlike. -_- i feel so used. kope all my frags! nehneh!

dream a little dream.

2007-09-21T17:00:00.000+08:00

i heard you laugh today. and it almost made me cry.

if we get through this, we can get through anything.

i love you with all my heart.

starlight.

2007-09-21T16:57:00.001+08:00

i believe in the little thing called love, beneath all the hate and hurt.

fortunes.

2007-09-15T21:04:00.000+08:00

it's so sad that rio ferdinand and nemanja vidic are united's most consistent and dependable players. -_-

hahaha, but well, the results are all that matters aye?

three on a trot.

i'm even starting to admire vidic.
rawr.

oscar romeo delta.

2007-09-12T02:34:00.000+08:00

this is a happy post! why? because understudies are here!! :D

i've no idea what kinda spec culture the other airbases have, but i've got a pretty bad impression of those from changi and paya lebar. even if you have to come here with a screwed up attitude, at least put in some effort to learn and carry out your duties properly. but that aside, it's time to slack! :D

actually it's kinda stupid. i'm going back to camp to... do nothing. -_- sheesh.

it's high time for me to go searching for a post-ns job. i need a 9-5 job that pays well. rawr! i just need a 4-digit monthly salary. anyone got any lobang?!

and i've been thinking of getting a laptop for uni soon. and i've kinda decided on an iBook! i know i know it's mac, but i'm told it's possible to install windows on it. but according to zhihao, mac is damn easy to use. and it doesn't require anti-virus or the works. sighhh so how? decisions decisions.

anyways my piggirlfriend is down with chicken pox! -squawk!- haha, got it from darren la. so poor her and been stuck at home for a week, and the next. -nagnagnagnag- :D but me, being the ever-nice boyfriend has been camping at her house, and i've been buying lunch and stuff back for her! chicken rice, green apple juice, gelare waffles. tmd! i'm how nice! pig you better love me more! :D

remember okay, i care. it's not always your fault for all the stuff happening at home, even though they shove this in your face. i know you don't like it, but hang in there. i'll be here for you. i'll let you whine to me. don't get upset, it's not worth the effort.

i'll be here okay. (: loves.

staring at the sun.

2007-09-03T03:06:00.000+08:00

hello i have this sudden impulse to blog and.... tada!

i'm here.

(1) i swear lingerie shopping must be one of the most embarrassing things you can make any man do. and yes i had to walk into Ero to look for something for my precious girlfriend. (it was pretty last-minute so i was kinda desperate) and you know what, the lingerie there sucked!! stuff grandmas would wear lor haha. so in the end, i went in for nothing!!

(2) i finally bought my baby a diamond ring from SK. thank god i managed to find something affordable and within my budget. diamond leh! i'm so proud of myself. 0.06 carat leh! HAHAHA! eh what, 0.06 carat still diamond okay, and to mummy and elaina and etc: IT IS VISIBLE OKAY!

(3) understudy has arrived!! wooo! finally, after 1 month's delay. understudy = more off!! :D :D

(4) lyn thinks i get too worked up over games. :/ hey i'm passionate! :D nobody likes to lose right, even if it's just a game. play game must win what right right! i promise i wont take it out on you okay!

(5) KYLA IS 7 KG ALREADY OMGWTFBBQ! that's like ginormous. gosh. she was like 400grams 2 months ago. hohoho i can't even carry her with one hand anymore! holy fuck! kyla will you please stop growing, reverse abit can? or stay like this forever? you're so cute laa! ((: she's all cuddled up beside me and i'm her convenient sleeping cushion. -_-

anw yeesiang, zhongyao and i managed to find time to sneak in this pic right before marching out for NDP07. TRISERVICE guardofhonour. (:

i wanted to post my pics of kyla, and more pics of me and lyn but but.. photobucket bully me. ):

i've to wake up in 2 hours to book in. ):

words left unspoken.

2007-08-11T01:49:00.000+08:00

i've been trying so damn hard, i've been giving so damn much. everything. but still, it just isn't enough.

like the waves clapping against the shore.

2007-08-07T20:15:00.000+08:00

this can't be happening.

NDP is less than 2 days ago and i've got a fever?

late night serenade.

2007-08-05T03:22:00.000+08:00

baby's sleeping over. :D :D :D

work at sticky rice's pretty tough on her considering she's schooling and all. take care and rest well hun, don't be too tired when i book out. (:

i think i'm dotaing too much for my own good. lmaooo. kyla's such a little devil. stopping snapping at me already will you! hahaha. she's only well-behaved when 1) she' sleepy 2) i'm feeding her. puppy stay this size forever okay! such a huggable size. :D

waking up at 7.30 to book in. i'm sick. my head hurts. ):

goodnight.

solace.

2007-08-03T02:01:00.000+08:00

it's just magical how puppies can tell when you're sad. (:

slowly, spinning redemption.

2007-08-03T01:40:00.000+08:00

who i've been hates who i am.

i've changed.

you know i never had a problem controlling my temper. people who know me can vouch - i rarely got mad. i could take a whole load of teasing, insulting, goading without snapping.

things aren't quite the same now. i blow up over trivial matters, have horrendous mood swings, and worst, i take out all my pent-up frustrations on the world around me.

and it's affecting me. i never wanted that to happen. everytime, i regret losing my cool, giving shit to lyn, even my closest friends. and it's such insignificant issues that prompt such a fiery reaction from me. i never had a problem with anger management, but clearly, things don't ever stay the same. do they?

you never used to be like that, you know?

you won't believe how much that hurt. i don't want this to jeopardize us. believe me, i'm trying. it isn't easy, fighting against myself. i never meant to make you this sad.

i'm trying. i pray that it'd be enough.

because you mean too much to me.

never taste so good.

2007-08-02T19:30:00.001+08:00

i miss vjc. ):

http://youtube.com/watch?v=Y224SK3DyYw&mode=related&search=

now, rejoice.

2007-07-27T03:30:00.000+08:00

hello darl, it's been 11 months, one shy of a year. awfully long isn't it? i can't wait to spend many many more anniversaries with you. (: girlfriend. <3

kyla's here to stay. :D hello small girl! she's like a small furball with legs. scurrying around the whole house sniffing here sniffing there. she can be super mischievious though, she absolutely loves to bully (aka bite) my younger brother. but little kyla has a strong doggy smell. :/ can't wait to bathe her again. hahaha.

girlfriend's been over quite alot lately, and that's a good thing! (: she isn't exactly on talking terms with her mummy. having some cold war that isn't exactly a cold war 'cuz they aren't mad at each other for anything. erbs. confusing ain't it? but baby don't worry kay, boyfriend's here for you! i'll be here to hold your hand. <3 however i haven't been over much for dinner lately. today's yet another milestone for me and her. i'm glad i have you with me.

thanks for putting up with all my shit. you're my sunshine. (:
i love you.

where your love has always been enough for me.

2007-07-19T02:12:00.000+08:00

kyla is coming homeee! :D

i'm twenty this year and i guess it's about time for me to make my own decisions about my life, my finances independent of my parents. honestly, i've not made many decisions which blatantly contradicts my parents' wishes. truth to be told, i can't even remember the last time that happened. i don't know if that's the result of me being spoilt, my parents getting me most of the stuff i want; or that my parents aren't unreasonable people, and try greatly to give me and my brother our needs/wants. probably a mixture of both.

it hurts too when i get the cold shoulder from my mum and dad for bringing the pup home. it really does, don't think that i don't care. i'm kinda past the 'rebellious teenager' phase, i no longer feed on my parents' ire. i really wished that they would welcome and accept my decision. sighh.

my parents aside, i'm pretty worried about kyla too. whether she'd get used to my place (my room to be exact), whether she'll be okay during the days when i'll be in camp. i really really hope this'll work out.

ahh kyla's so adorable! i can't wait to have her scuttling around in my room, and once she's properly toilet-trained, cuddle with me in my bed. (:

i hope kyla'll like me. (:

---

anyways, i've been off for the past 2 days and will be for the next 2! :D luckily wed's rehearsal's cancelled. i'm just bumming around, enjoying this rare and prolonged break. ndp's gonna be over soon, less than a month to go. this month's schedule's been pretty kind to me, hopefully, so will next month's! let me spend more time with puppy!

and and looks like i gotta start looking for work earlier than expected. blew close to 1.5k on lil kyla. i've to make use of the break after army to earn back that and enough for uni expenses. life's a bitch without enough cash to spend. lmao.

okays i'm off to call my dear now, the other love of my life. nights! (:

love me jaded.

2007-07-14T00:36:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired, physically and emotionally.

and it always sounds like i'm the bad guy.

all notes in monotone.

2007-06-26T00:26:00.000+08:00

one thing one of my men told me i truly agree with - doing parades aren't 'shiong', but it's so mind-numbing because you do the same thing over and over again. it gets so mechanical after awhile, with us being told to be 'sharper', more 'precise' yada yada. and all the fucking parades are exactly the same! i mean, how many malay commands do you know sheesh, basically it's all the same.

hello world, i'm back. have been busy, oh boy, really busy. saf day's this sunday, ndp family show is this saturday. cram in another 3 safdp rehearsals and that practically sums up my entire week. hoho..

do men really take commanders' kindness for granted sometimes? well, the vibes i'm getting seem to support that. isn't it basic courtesy, if we treat you nice, shouldn't you make an effort to fulfill the most fundamental of your responsibilities to keep both yourself and your commanders out of trouble?

maybe some people don't have that much in terms on EQ. but what about simple conscience?

jaded.

2007-06-22T03:56:00.000+08:00

welcome back girlfriend! :D how were the rocks statues and wooden tombs in china? (:

sighh i am damn sick of doing drills and parades now. i can totally understand how 13th mono felt earlier this year (remembering how blissfully ignorant i was). just the thought of safdp rehearsals itself can be such a turnoff. imagine standing still in a parade on a scorching hot afternoon, covered from head to toe, cradling a 2kg heavy rifle for 90 minutes, all for the sake of commemorating yet another year of national slavery.

as a result of my hectic schedule, i now spend, on average, 1 and a half days at home a week. fuck. that's even less than a 5-day-stay-in-work-week. sigh. and you know what, we probably won't even get off's 'cuz of the fucked up off management as tengah. so aloysius is just looking forward to 9th august - finish ndp and can officially get into the ORD mood!! :D

on a more serious note, i think i'm such a disappointment. ):

slowly consuming.

2007-06-13T19:40:00.000+08:00

i am going to book in, in bout 2 hours. ):

safdp rehearsal tmr. )):

home.

2007-06-13T12:32:00.000+08:00

sigh this is boring. i still haven't gone to the gym, since i just woke up 20 minutes ago. dota isn't that appealing with all my friends offline.

aye girlfriend where are you! life is so boring with you away! ):

catch the breath.

2007-06-12T21:54:00.000+08:00

hello all! i've got the new skin now thanks to the girlfriend. (: nice eh? and i'ma revive my blog again. uhm yeah again.

unfortunately, the most eventful incident this week was my 4th traffic offence in 3 months. yeah, gg me. outrageously unlucky me. sighh haven't told my mum yet, she'll flip lor. and that means that this month, i'd have effectively no cash to spend at all. boy am i fucked..

pig's off gallivanting in china now, and she says its horribly hot and boring and she can't wait to be back. haha. well, we ain't the arty-farty, 'oh-my-god-look-at-the-pretty-mountain-beneath-the-clouds' kind. i wouldn't choose to go china anytime man, hahaha!

oooh speaking of vacations, I WANNA GO ON A HOLIDAY TOO!

it's been ages since i've been on one. last one was hongkong last year. erb. but but before that, was like in sec4!! that's loooong. i wanna go japan! or phuket! i went off to send lyn and family off at the airport today and boy, did i miss the feeling of going on holiday, plane ride and all. i think i'd probably even enjoy the packing lah! lmao.

i'm on leave today, and tmr's off. i shall say it here so that i'll make good: ALOYSIUS IS GOING TO THE GYM TMR! I PROMISE! NO MORE PROCRASTINATING!

rahhh!!

like that thing called prozac.

2007-06-07T20:30:00.000+08:00

3 traffic offences in 3 months.
2 of which have deduction of demerit points.

this is bad.
lmao.

midwest skies.

2007-05-16T20:11:00.000+08:00

dear diary,

i've been feeling so insecure since lyn darling asked me if it was okay with me to have dinner with james on his birthday. james is her ex who kinda been wanting to get back together with her. well, i didn't know what to do. i was kinda unhappy and moody after hearing that, but i told her yeah it was okay, albeit reluctantly. you know, the 'yes' answer that's actually more of 'no'? nevermind.

i think she got a little upset. she asked me why i always make it sound like she's trying to hurt me on purpose, and honestly, i didn't know what to do. say yes and let it eat at me, or say no and be a selfish jackass. do you have an answer for me?

she asked me last night when i was in camp, close to 11. after a few texts i told her i had to go sleep, had rehearsal tmr morning. truth is, i couldn't get to sleep till very late in the morning. i was worried, hurt, and kinda lost. i don't know why exactly. just very emotional.

it continued till tmr when we weren't exactly very happy with each of our reactions. and i felt so sad throughout the day. i was so bloody distracted during rehearsal. i got fucked up pretty bad by the trainers on a few occasions. i actually forgot my own spot and went following the guy in front of me. hehh. i think boonrui could tell i wasn't exactly myself.

everything's okay now. it always is, and that's why i so appreciate this relationship. i know i won't do anything that would jeopardize our relationship and lyn won't either. but i don't wanna take this special thing between us for granted. i just gotta talk this out with someone. something. no one's gonna read this anyway, it's on the brink of death.

you know, when i walked into lyn's house today, and saw her the first time today... i was so fucking happy. shrugs. it was just so good to see her.

she's not meeting james anymore, and i know she's probably not very happy, not with not being able to see james, but at my reaction. i really don't know if i did the right thing. is there even a 'right' thing to do?

i need a teacher for these kinda things. someone who will give me answers to quandries Life throws my way. rahhhh!

i love this girl. oh so lovely. it's past her appearance, it's no longer that. it's her self i'm in love with. i don't know if she knows this, but i will do anything to make her happy.

irreplaceable.

2007-04-21T17:43:00.000+08:00

i love long breaks like this weekend. well, long is subjective since my definition of that isn't the same as those working 5 days a week only. the last 2 days with baby was perfect. (: for one, i spent one whole night sitting on baby's porch steps and just talking to her. hehh but i'm sorry i had to go on the couch to sleep later 'cuz aloy was very tired after a whole day of parade rehearsals. haha.

and i swear lyn is nocturnal. :D

boo! today's saturday alrdy and we just got disconnected from a pretty fun internal. rawwr! but all's well 'cuz aloy and his baby pig are going to dinner with the family! hehe. i think i'm high on sugarrr.

helloo pig! if you're reading this, i hope you know that i've never met anyone like you, someone i'm so afraid of hurting or losing. you belong in my life okayyy, so don't say i never tell you ahhh!! muacks! (:

few things in life are irreplaceable.

you're one of them. (:

synchro.

2007-04-17T02:51:00.000+08:00

helloo world, i'm back to whine about my pathetic life in this festering pit of throw-up long forgotten by everyone.

HEYA! (:

i fell sick last week. and boy, did i fall sick! 5 days of mc! hahaha! of course in retrospect i can joke about it, but gosh, it sucked to be sick. it was pretty bad, like on the first day my fever hit 39.4 degrees and i thought it was bad. the second day it went up to 39.9 degrees and i was like whoa! and on the third day it hit 40. and by then i wasn't thinking much anymore. hahaha!

the girlfriend stayed with me and forced me to like soak up icewater (and she assures me that it'd bring down the tempearture). loool. didn't really work but i appreciated her being here. and that poor girl came down with a fever the next day too. sighh sorry babyy. i'm just glad we're both okay now.

i just finished my first duty cycle after the fever. and my last! 'cuz we're pulling out for rehearsals for ndp. so i've no idea what's my schedule like all the way until august. hope i get my off man.

and and today was really swell! (: mostly 'cuz of darling phunkheart. she just makes my day. (: (: (: although i had to watch the reaping with her. lols.

but i still love you long time kay! (:

you.

2007-03-20T00:25:00.000+08:00

i've never been happier this whole year than this long weekend. i mean, we could spend the whole day doing nothing, and i'd go to bed smiling and wishing for the next day to come.

i don't know what i did in my previous lifetime, to deserve a partner like you.

but i sure as hell am damn glad that you're always here by my side. (:

i love you.

l.y.n.

breath.

2007-03-03T02:52:00.000+08:00

i have resolved to be more patient and less susceptible to flaring up temper-wise. especially towards my darling. (: i hate fighting with her and i have come to the conclusion that time spent with her should be happy moments. (:

i've been driving around quite abit these two days. more than i'd expected to. but it was fun. although lyn loves to tease me 'bout how my hands would freeze up everytime i drove and that how stressed i look on the road. hehh! ehh major traffic does stress me okayyy! i don't wanna endanger your life or mine. parking is still tricky though. kinda different with 4 poles marking a lot. haha.

i can't wait to get my own car. maybe a fairlady or a celica! :D yeah in my dreams. but i can't help day-dreaming. haha. wouldn't it be cool eh?

distant.

2007-03-02T01:31:00.000+08:00

helloos. today was a goooood day. (: thank God.

1. passed driving
2. met my babypig at her place
3. dotadota
4. watched norbit with babypig
5. drove babypig around! :D
6. spent whole day with babypig! (:

i'm always so happy when i'm with her. i dunno why we're so emo when we're apart. it hurts sometimes. especially in camp.

so, another day back in camp tmr. i'm going in for only 1 day. -.- then it'll be the weekends. lameeeee. wanted to extend my leave but better not burden mark and co. hehh.

i think i'm getting pretty reckless with driving already, so mental note to self: please don't get carried away and throw your life into some ditch. aye.

i love you baby. and i hate fighting with you.
mwuacks! (:

i'll take you back to the start.

grace.

2007-03-01T11:58:00.000+08:00

hi hi, due to my girlfriend's incessant nagging for me to update my blog, i'm finally back! :D

and what better way to start blogging again, than to announce one of God's miracle. (: you know what's that miracle?

aloysius is now a qualified driver. :D

yeehawww! i had a really bad case of nerves before the test, thanks to the disastrous pre-test practice circuit run. and no thanks to my overly-vocal and negative instructor. after the practice, before the test, i was pretty sure, 90% sure i was going to fail.

so i just sat in the waiting room, and talked to God. i asked Him if He would give me his blessings and favour for this test, although i know and He knows that i've been sliding away from Him. i prayed for extra vigilance, peace of mind to clear this test. i prayed the hardest i did in months.

after the test, while going to the debrief room with my tester, i was 95% sure i would fail. while i didn't get any immediate failures, i felt that my movement was sloppy, and my control just wasn't there. but voila!

'okay you passed.' it was like the first thing he said after i sat down. i just sat there and stared back with my mouth gaping. lol. 8 points, for requesting reverse twice. and that was all. as you can see, nothing short of one of God's miracle. even before the test, my instructor told me that mr lim was one of the most lenient testers, one of the best for tests. and what do you know, i got mr lim in the ballot, and i got route 8, which, my instructor informed me, was the easiest test route.

nothing short of God's grace. thank you Lord. (:

and there is a certain someone i gotta thank too. my girlfriend the pig.

baby i'm sorry for getting upset last night. maybe i really haven't been putting enough effort into this, although i thought i have. it's true, i keep asking you to put yourself in my shoes and think about my position. but then again, how many times have i tried to think about the situation from your position? i guess it's nobody's fault, i don't need 'sorry' from you. you are doing exactly what i'd have wanted you to do, sharing everything with me.

i know you probably don't want to talk to me right now after all that has happened last night. but i'm still gonna tell you that i'll be praying for you to pass. and perhaps also to tell you that i still wanna make it work out and spend forever with you. good luck and drive well darlin. love, girlfriend.

you won't know how much this meant to me. i wanted to call you the moment i read it, but it was like 4am. thanks for your prayers. thanks for your blessings. this is for you. don't think that i wrote this, just 'cuz i'm happy i passed my driving. i composed this in my mind at 4am in the morning.

please know, that no matter what, i'll be there to hold your hand, to hug you and keep you safe. because i love you. and it's as simple as that. (:

iloveyou.

love, boyfriend.

stay.

2007-01-28T10:20:00.000+08:00

muahaha, my baby and me spent 60 bucks on a huge feast at billy bombers last night. it was a fantastic meal and i bet lyn feels very guilty now. eat so much, so sinful! hahaha! :D nevermind lahhh, just go running 'bout 5 more times can already! lmao. well, it was a fun evening, and moments like these are the things i want more in my life.

aye it's five months already!! :D
happy five months you pig! i love you, although you're such a pig. many many much much for long long time! (:

speaking of months, ORD's in like less than 9 months! :D actually time flies pretty fast once i got outta SISPEC. life as a ranking commander is just so different from life as a lowly trainee. i can't wait to get outta army, 'cuz there're so many things i'm looking forward to. spending more time with lyn, keeping my hair long and colouring it, finding a job that pays more than the measly RSAF, dota more, more dota, visit the zoo (lol!) etc etc...

gosh can't wait!

wake me up when september ends! (:

liberate.

2007-01-27T15:04:00.000+08:00

why can't you just understand that i still need my freedom? i'm bloody twenty this year, so why can't you let me do just what i want? and it's just two damned days a week that i can do so. every single time i come home i get this shit from you. it's just circular logic over and over again. so what if you mean well? have you thought of how i felt? you haven't considered how i feel 'bout things from the other aspects of my life have you? if i have to hear this when i'm in a foul mood, you're just worsening things aren't you? stop giving my fixed bedtimes, wake-up times, and telling me that i'm screwing up my own life. it's my life. let me decide how i live it. if i crash and burn... it's my fault.

you just gotta let go.

burning.

2007-01-27T15:03:00.000+08:00

at times like these, i wish the whole world would just go away and let me be.

'cept lyn.

affection.

2007-01-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

fairlyn tan.

no matter how difficult it can get.
no matter how much i hurt.
no matter how much i hurt you.
no matter.

i'll never give this up.

because,
i love you so.

precious.

2007-01-03T01:11:00.000+08:00

i don't wanna go back to campppp! )):

thanks to training branch, i've had these 4 days of break, and i'm lovin' each and every moment of it. these few days have been fantastic, i've managed to spend lotsa time with lyn, catch up with my pals, play alot of dota, and watched 2 movies.

oh oh, i spent new year's at lyn's crib! :D

i know we've been fighting more the past 2 weeks, but i can see we're settling down, we're both giving way now, and i'm loving her more and more. (: it's the little stuff that she does for me, that makes me so happy some times. i just read her blog, and and it's kinda touching. hehhh! :D i'm sorry i made you angryy in the first place, but i'm glad you like the flower! (: i'll always be here to mwuah you and give you flowers kay! hahaha!

i've gotta go to camp tmr!! but but at least it's only for 3 days, so it ain't so bad. baby you pig! don't be sad kay, i saw tears when i left just now. i'll be out soon kay! (:

i like pugna! :D

baby i'm sorry i can't stay up and talk to you the whole night again, i gotta work tmr. it's not that i don't want to, but i just need the rest lah. be goood kay! boyfriend's coming out on friday!

i want my camera phone back, so that i can take more pics and then post 'em up here! booo! i can't wait for ORD. then i don't have to leave lyn for an entire week. then i can use camera phones, maybe get my n95! :D hahaha. i bought jay's album too! listening to it now, sounds not bad. hehhh. i bought the parallel imported one, cost me bout 9 bucks. hmm i wonder if that's illegal.

baby pig! i'm off to sleep already kay. you're on the phone, but i'm still thinking of you, and i'll be missing you tmr, thursday and friday, till i see you again. don't frown and smile more! i love you darling. (:

muacks!

refresh.

2006-12-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

me and lyn have been fighting quite abit more than usual these few days. it's most probably 'cuz of my new schedule, resulting in crappy moods from both sides. tempers flaring and all. but but the best thing is, we both realised this and we've sat down and talked and talked and now my love for my baby pig is now stronger than before. ((:

tanpighwei! i'm sorry if i've made you mad, made you sad over these few weeks. i know i can be a jerk. but i hope you know, i'll never deliberately hurt you. i love you too damn much for that, and you mean too damn much to me. i'll always be here for you, no matter what.

finished up all my christmas shopping with lyn todayyy!! yayyyness! :D all accomplished in less than a day. I AM MORE EFFICIENT THAN MY MUM. got a pink! topman tie for my dad, belgian chocolates for my mum, nothing for my brother.

OH SHIT! i forgot my aunt's!!!! nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! ):

anyways i dunno why lyn was so horrified by the tie i chose for my dad. it's nice lor! pink flowery patterns. something i might wear to work. hahaha!

i'm talking to mah babe on msn now. we're both in a very happy happy mood. we're talking like when we just started dating. :D hahaha! it's been awhile, and i'm really glad. you're the best girlfriend i ever had! ERB. :D

whyyy is stupid pvp downnn?! on a saturday night! booooo! RAWWWR!

crash.

2006-12-15T21:42:00.000+08:00

you know what you know what?
whenever lyn is down or in a crabby mood, just give her eggs to cheer her up!! :D for example, yakun soft-boiled eggs, sunsine eggs at grill parlours etc etc. works like a charm. hahaha!

how you ever felt, sometimes, like giving up on something because the people you are working with are totally incompetent? well in my case, it's my superiors. they aren't totally incompetent per se. make that hopelessly inefficient. first, they can't make up their minds on an issue. second, they make conflicting decisions. third, and the worst, they push all the blame to us underlings.

remember when we were all trainees and we thought we were the lowest lifeforms in the saf? nothing much has changed. except that now i'm a 3SG. because of some cock-ups by the higher-ups, we do extra work, and in the end, shoulder extra blame.

sighhh. 3SGs are underpaid and overworked. ):

< 3

2006-12-13T11:27:00.001+08:00

i do.

tears.

2006-12-07T12:28:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really feel like just letting you be. because i know anything that i say isn't gonna help at all. and i get affected too. i'd become moody and starting on anti-depressant again. maybe i'm addicted to the hurt, because sometimes i want to feel that way. anti-depressant does that. but how can i walk away from you? you need me. and that's why i wanna stay here with you. even though i can't help much, but i'll be here to listen. i'll be here to give you that hug and kiss, to tell you everything's gonna be okay soon. i'll always be here for you, just so you know. you're my world.

please trust me.

regular.

2006-12-06T02:51:00.000+08:00

my pig's phone battery just died. again! pfffttt! charge your phoneeee!

anywayyyyyy life's sucha bore. in camp, that is. routine things over and over, but but, we've shifted our bunks! so from a crummy and dirty bunk (a freaking rat jumped on me while i was sleeping!) to a new and improved one! we managed to fashion a couch, salvage lotsa stuff. planning to bring in a mini-bar, tv, ps2, dvd player, stand-fans etc etc. muahaha! tengah resort...

anyways, i love just lying down beside lyn and spend time just talking to her. baby you're beautiful and i want you for life. (:

bleach is damn nice! i'm hooked on bleach! i'm at episode 29 now, hahahaa! at least i can watch 5 eps at a go, not like all you people, waiting for an episode each week. :D i think ishida is damn cool!

and bejewled2 is very addictive. -.-
NO MORE MOVES!

i'm on leave for the next 2 days! so i'm lyn's runaway pig again for this cycle! hahaha! (: happy happy! this better be good 'cuz poor me's spending christmas, new year, chinese new year in camp.

payyyyydayyyyyyy in 2 dayyyyyys!! :D

i could see us holding hands,
walking on the beach,
our toes in the sand.
i could see us on the countryside,
sitting on the grass,
laying side by side.

mylove.

2006-11-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

my red devils held chelsea to a 1-1 draw! i'm so proud of 'em man, especially in the first half, hehhh, had a scare didn't yall chelski fans? (: clearly ronaldo, rooney, saha and giggs too much to handle. 2nd half was abit disappointing but wth la, there's still a 3-point lead. :D

and and i'm in a very gooood mood now. (: i spent the entire of the past 48 hours with lyn tan! hehhh, actually we didn't do much as usual, just rotting at home while it rained cats and dogs outside. but but it's just bliss being in her company. 3 months and counting babe! love ya!

i can see us holding hands,
walking on the beach,
our toes in the sand.

i can see us on the countryside,
sitting in the grass,
laying side by side.

you can be my baby,
let me make you my lady.
girl you amaze me,
ain't gotta do nothing crazy,
see all i want you to do is

be my love.

2006-11-27T02:15:00.000+08:00

♥ ♥ ♥

three months and counting (:

spillingover.

2006-11-23T01:41:00.000+08:00

it's the end of the year! but it doesn't have the end of the year feeling. my brother's enjoying his holiday gaming away, people like min are partying after the A's, and even the OCTs are looking forward to their 9th december commissioning. what do i have to look forward to?

i won't even be a civilian for christmas.

on a happier/side note,
I LOVE KOREAN SEAWEED! <3

and girlfriend of course. [:

nittyy.

2006-11-18T02:26:00.001+08:00

i'm here to blog about random things. since my life is a total bore now (with my current schedule). no thanks to rsaf.

i got a call today, dismount day mind you, that ssomeone passed away in base and there'd be a military funeral going to happen sometime in the next 5 days. how does this concern me? i'm the GOH IC, so i gotta re-draw the bloody number1 ranks for my men, so that they can take part in the funeral. luckily us specs don't have to. but i still had to go down to plab on my dismount day to draw the stuff. -grumblegrumblegrumble-

my girlfriend likes to use my body as canvas. LMAOOO! seriously la, if i have time i should post pictures of the stuff she draws on my body. lemme see (1) a whole paragraph of text of my left ankle (2) another paragraph of cute text on my left thigh (3) this tribal design on my right ankle (4) 'hi (:' on my left elbow.

LOL!

i don't want the ink to fade away. (:

i haven't been seeing my grandparents a real lot recently, and my mum's right, i'd better make more time for them. i love 'em to bits! i remember the times in primary school, when i was still living with them, how they would take care of my every need, caring for me, loving me. i really want to show my appreciation, and to repay them. i am their eldest grandson afterall. God bless them with good health!

oh no, this is one of those days again. lost a match and going back to camp for 2 days without lynbaby. rawwwwr!

i. shall. not. get. emo.

:D

looking at my thigh makes me smile. (:

i love you world! well, maybe not all, especially the people that pissed me off bad today. but i love you, all the others! :D

peace out.

confessions.

2006-11-15T02:30:00.000+08:00

i think i'm a huge jerk sometimes. i can be. but thanks for putting up with me and my emo-half. (: you mean the world to me.

i had another fun day out with girlfriend, but walaooo she made me buy this piglet mug for herself and this eeyore one for myself. LMAO! the piglet one is damn cute lahhh! right piglet? :D and darren being his usual extra self bought a huge mug too from action city. man, i think one of his mug supplies the entire day's water requirements lah.

and i really like this green-ish skin! (: thanks! hahaha.

this is random, but i really hate waiting uneccessarily. god, i know this sounds posuer-ish but my time is precious can! i mean, i book out for half a day each cycle and i wanna make the full use of the 18 hours i have. bahhhh..

and and, the best things to go to sleep with:
(a) winning a beyond-godlike dota match (holyshyttt!)
(b) girlfriend's lingering voice
(c) knowing that i'll be in camp for only one day

tonight's a+b+c.
:D :D

goodnight world!

`lyn's runaway pig!

splot.

2006-11-12T02:11:00.000+08:00

the worst things to go to bed with:
(a) losing a dota match and not playing well.
(b) going back to camp the next day.
(c) knowing that i'd not be able to see my baby for the next 2 days.

tonight's a+b+c.

sighhh.

maomao.

2006-11-10T08:32:00.001+08:00

YES LAH. okay so im finally done with boyfriend's blog. pffft! baby i tell you ah if you dont update more often now i will smack you. not like you're gonna be scared and do it so nevermind :O it's eight thirty and i slept at 4. woohoo lyn you smart ass :( no im not complaining bout doing up your blog cause i had fun kay! haha. oh wells, i <3 photoshop and green so that explains the template :) last night i had a dream about you; in this dream im dancing right beside you im tired and grumppy. bah im getting old and my hormones are rotting away quite rapidly. i don't know why im having so much mood swings lately (ARGH) perhaps im going throu an early phrase of menopause. cool. don't stop come a little closer, as we jam the rythm gets stronger oh and i can't stop lala-ing along with the bg music :D it's a happyhappy song -mwuah- im going for dental ): i hate dental maybe cause my dentist name is seemen and it sounds uncomfortably like semen so it's weird when i try to address her :/ right, neeyways the days with boyfriend's FABULOUS <3 (although he still refuses to watch the grudge2 with me) and he's coming out today! after im done with dental, after im done saying 'thankyou dr seemen', after that darn long queue for payment, after the pain of booking the next dental date, after i've reached home and prob after im done grooming kyer - haha he's so going to throw a tantrum after reading this. ahem, yes just blame it all on NS. it's more ridiculous then i am! crap im not making sense, i refuse to rant on and pour the rest of my pride and dignity away. not that i had any to start with. pffft. BYE

puresunlight.

2006-11-05T22:52:00.000+08:00

hello world. i'm back.

been close to a month with no updates. 'cept that last one by lyn. it's 2 months and counting and counting and counting! :D

haven't been updating 'cuz i really had no time on my hands at all. my schedule sucks. major understatement there. 3 consecutive 3 day cycles in october and then back to 2 day cycles all the way in novemeber. that means aloy is gonna have no life at all as long as this keeps up. half a bloody day to book out every cycle, how am i gonna find time for friends, family, dota etc. and yeah, this blog isn't very high on the priority list. :D

i have been spending lotsa time with my baby and it's bliss! (: we've had a coupla tiffs but i still love her to bits. hey i know i can be a jerk sometimes, but bear with me aye, you mean a lot to me. (:

so much has happened in these few weeks but i can't recall much. my monotonous lifestyle can be pretty draining, more psychologically than physically. it sucks when i gotta leave lyn on the night before duty, and spend the next 2 days just thinking of her. i've got no time for friends too, gotta postpone meeting ed and ben once already. sorry buds! i'll try to meet yall when i next have a weekend off aight!

oops i'm rambling bout army again.

ares has been dying on me recently, can't seem to be able to connect but it finally worked out today. yayness! lotsa people seem to be cutting down downloading of songs. i don't think i am, music's too pretty damn much important. but i'ma just not go overboard lest i attract some unwanted attention.

oh oh this weekend was bliss! i managed to leave my dumb squadron anniversary thingy early on saturday afternoon. i spent the whole saturday morning running about sentosa with boonrui, doing some amazing race thing. there were like zero babes la, even on siloso. oops. :D and anyway i rushed off early to meet lynnie dear, and that was the start of the happiest weekend this year.

we headed back to my crib after she dragged me shopping for groceries for lunch tmr. gosh, i tell you, girls can just walk on and on and on and not feel tired. and so poor aloy was lugging his army bag, 3 bags of groceries and her sling bag all the wayyyy home. pig! pffttt! LOL. we played a coupla games then went off for dinner at her place. then they dragged me to the east coast pool parlour and we dota-ed the night away. that was mega fun, but dota was secondary. it was really nice spending time with lyn, though darren was there too. LMAO. but with my schedule and all, i really treasure the times i spend with her. maybe that's one good thing about army. or airforce in my case.

she dropped by earlier today and fixed up this huge feast. i swear she was making food for a whole family of 3 generations. HAHA. either that or she wants to stuff me and make me pile on the pounds. thanks for the lunch baby. you're the sweetest thing. (: and dear lyn spent the whole afternoon mapling awayy lahhh. dumb pearl harbour birds and helicopters! pfftttt!

i think my family likes her though. (:

i know i'm going back tmr, but i'm not gonna whine bout it. i'll be out on wednesday and i'm definitely gonna make time for you. lovelove! :D please take care of that cough/flu aye!

it's back to the monotonous cycle tmr again. internal squabbling over duties, brainless routine patrols...

still, life is goooood. (:

tata. till next time.

2006-10-29T21:21:00.000+08:00

♥ ♥ ♥

two months and counting (:

brightlights.

2006-10-12T00:36:00.000+08:00

first, a big shout-out to charlie platoon tab/fds. thanks (and no thanks!) guys! thanks for that shirt and cake and celebration at sakura. i didn't really expect that, but thanks! appreciate it! but uhm, no thanks for making me swallow 6 pieces of cake, then 10 raw oysters at one go, and then proceeding to mash strawberry chocolate cake into my face and stuffing whipped cream into my ears. my right ear was kinda blocked even after i washed it off and the oysters made me close to puking. hahaha. but thanks! (:

and i swear i'll never touch raw oysters again.

second, rob-b-hood's a good show! contrary to my expectations. it looked pretty lame to me, from what i saw from the trailers. but girlfriend and i decided to catch that at j8 today and it didn't disappoint. it was hilarious, and pretty darn touching at times. i saw girlfriend tearing, and yeah, it's quite a meaningful show too. lyn simply loves babies lah. she was gushing more over the baby, than over louis koo. lmao! yes, she goes 'sooo cutee!' everytime any baby passes us. roflmao!! (:

aye today was good. considering that the duty was hectic like crazy on tuesday. didn't expect to have a good day with only 2 hours of sleep in the last 40 hours. but life's been great. (:

tata. love.

hereandbeyond.

2006-10-09T00:32:00.000+08:00

it's been quite some time since i blogged aye.

i'm a little disorientated, forgive me. shift cycles does things to people. i booked out today, and yes though there were many obvious signs that today was a sunday, i still mistook it for a monday. rawwwr!

crashed lyn's place today, and unexpectedly, had lunch with mummy there. LOL. she's nice. (: she came over after my driving and we watched the da vinci code. well, we were supposed to and, uh. :D nehhhmind.

i'm sorry i was sucha bitch the other day. i guess i was moody. i still love you.

life in RSAF hasn't been good for the past week. 'cuz of the combat shoots for alpha and bravo, charlie had to man both dutty and response for friday and saturday, with some help from Nsmen. it ain't any easy job , especially for the specs, as we had much more duties to cover. and it didn't help me that a certain charlie spec was not prepared to do anything surplus to the absolute minimum, and gave you hell everytime you asked for assistance. i'm not personal, it's general sentiment.

oh and i've got great news! i'm gonna be stuck in camp for my birthday next saturday! it's charlie's combat shoot too, and i probably won't be able to take leave. fantastic huh? i'd probably not wanna waste leave on that day anw. zzz. but but, i'll be out on the 17th for a stretch of 6 days! that means i'll be out for lyn's birthday! (: i don't care, we're so celebrating ur 18th birthday! :D

i haven't dota-ed in ages. i bet i'm gonna suck. i can hear sam at it already. very funnehhh. i have this urge to furion! :D girlfriend's been taking up most of my time now, and and i don't have any complaints. :D civilian life's been goooood. and united's top of the table again. life's goood! lolol.

it's 12.53am on a monday morning. i'm uncharacteristically fatigued. from what? i don't know. usually i'm wide awake at 1am. must be the irregular sleeping hours in base. lyn's on the phone and she's rushing through her assignment, which let me mention, she assured me 3 days ago that it was 9i0% completed already! pffttt! i hope she finishes in time and gets her beauty sleep.

signing off now. yawns.

myeden.

2006-10-03T00:02:00.000+08:00

this girl makes me feel like the luckiest guy in the world. (:

{edit edit}
gf's here and she re-edited
this peeeeeekutre. :D
okay here it goes.

stylesofbeyond.

2006-10-02T02:13:00.000+08:00

omg this is hilarious! hahaha!

-shrugs-

ecstacy.

2006-09-30T01:59:00.000+08:00

i finally endured the cycle. dismount is here!! and i finally get to enjoy my loong weekend break, after clearing another 2 days of leave. and i still have 9 days left! joy oh joy! (:

and and today is the 29th. finally it's here. boy, it didn't disappoint and well worth the wait aye! ((: happy one month darling. i love you. although getting kicked and abused by mei wasn't fun. HAHA!

1 word sums up the day: UBER! (:

[edit] gheee maybe not in the dota aspect. wtf i've become a noob! gawd i don't believe the game i just had. gawd gawwwwd. noooo...[/edit]

negativity.

2006-09-24T22:13:00.000+08:00

hello world.

life has been treating me pretty well i guess. but i'm sick again. ): ): jeez, 3rd time in 2 months. i haven't been sick so much since... ever! rawwr. well i'm on att c again, and i do feel quite guilty, dumping work to my colleagues. i'll be back tmr, and i promise, i'll do more aye!

and manchester united crash to a 1-1 draw with lowly reading. more bad news it seems.

and when it seems my weekend can't get any worse. i stumbled upon this:

www.jumzd.blogspot.com

actually i didn't stumble upon it. lyn gave it to me. i urge everyone to go take a look. this james dude starts flaming IJ and IJ girls on his blog, about how they give a negative impression to the public, how they shouldn't get compensation from Sunday Times. it pissed me off, it disgusted me reading those entries. dear james making unfounded assertions and vicious attacks on the name CHIJ and the students. it's not just that lyn was from IJ, but i do know friends from IJ and they are a jolly good bunch, thank you very much. i've seen schools come out with worse breeds, but you don't see me bitching 'bout them on my blog aye? grow up, and please get a life. no, get your own life.

and why does this sound so personal? the thing 'bout IJ, cigarettes and tattoos? please don't tell me this is directed at one person, because it's fucking unfair and bloody myopic to do so. blame yourself for getting dumped by 2 IJ girls.

peace out to you.

2006-09-19T23:09:00.000+08:00

&dear boyfriend;

you spoil me
you love me
you complete me

{<3, girlfriend}

slowly.

2006-09-18T23:37:00.000+08:00

play another slow jam,
this time make it sweet.
play another slow jam,
for my baby and me.

hoping.

2006-09-18T18:14:00.000+08:00

what 100% start?
what winning streak?
we were getting dominated by arsenal the entire match. creating so many chances, genuine opportunities, not the half-chances that united had. chelsea take the lead now. sheeesh.

i shouldn't have gone to watch the match.

blanked.

2006-09-17T01:47:00.000+08:00

i'm finally out again, after 4 days in base. and boy, am i exhausted! i feel so... blanked-out. wasted. managing a platoon of men ain't a stroll in the park. used up more brain cells than i thought i could in the army. lolol. i'm starting to enjoy working with lta qiu, at least stuff gets done. and today's mounting was seriously sweeet.

onto more civilian mattters, tmr is manchesterunited vs arsenal. and and on a more secondary note, chelsea vs liverpool. hehhh i chose the right day to clear my leave lahh! :D :D even though ryan giggs and park ji-sung are out, hopefully with the current form and momentum, arsenal can be dispatched with ease. some weekend entertainment finallyyy. (:

lyn's dota-ing now 'cuz she thought i had fallen asleep. -_-" well, okay actually i did, but half an hour! and then and then i woke up and went to bathe so i'm wide awake now! so here i am updating while waiting for her call. baby hurrryyyy! (:

i seriously need to overcome my inertia and pull my lazy ass off to start training for ippt. i haven't exercised in 2plus months but i'm still currently under the illusion that i'm still gold standard. (hahahaha!) okay aloy, sunday i'm free. evening time. go gymming and running. yups, sounds goood.

so there's this monster hunter craze in base recently. what's up man, i don't see what's so fun about that. but something amusing happened this afternoon. some reservist came up to me and went, 'is the psp rsaf standard issue now ah?'. LMAO!! hahaha! that cracked me up.

zzz i'm getting sleeepppyyyy.

but damn, it feels good to be back.

r.a.w.r.

2006-09-14T18:35:00.000+08:00

im in camp now and gf's blogging
for mee!
and i really can't wait for the 29th
and i wonder wht's girlfriend's
reaction huh!
(HAHAHAHAA)

i wonder wht's gf thinking of now.
she's thinking of me i know teehee.

it's so boring here having only to come
out after two days -argh
and im hungry and it's raining and im lazy to go
get food and and i think giving my id and pw
to baby is a very bad idea.
(girlfriend: *evil laugh)

it's cold and there's no hot water in camp
):
baby dragged me into this 2v2 game which
was so lame cause i had like 4 double kills.
(freaking hell you're ego boyfriend)

i want my
aloy nowww!
baby baby
ilu

ownage.

2006-09-05T18:10:00.000+08:00

phunkheart just owned my ass at a 3v3 internal. -_-"
i swear it's the hero choice.
but she's the imbal anyways. (:

and before sam the jerk comments, the loss had nothing to do with me noobing 'cuz i wasn't! :D

r.a.w.r.

addicted.

2006-09-05T12:39:00.000+08:00

well, maybe falling sick wasn't so bad after all. :D

i spent my time sleeping my fever away, watching some tv, some dota and hours on the phone. yeah and i had the usual head pain that comes with my fever. ugh, i still have it if you're wondering. it's like some bad ex, clinging and won't go away. HAHA!

steve irwin the crocodile hunter is dead! condolences mate. how ironic though, he didn't die to his beloved crocodiles. he actually died from a stingray attack while diving in aussie. hmmm. still it's pretty sad, considering how young his kids are. heh, take care mrs irwin!

i found this hilarious music vid some time ago. it really cracked me up. it's by this hiphop artiste from taiwan, rapping about 台妹. hahaha! funnehhhh lyrics. here's the vid.

MC HotDog - 我愛台妹
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kHu901NtnSU

my head's spinning from staring at the screen. i'm gonna hit the sack for awhile until baby comes back. tata!

r.a.w.r.

mycure.

2006-09-04T10:31:00.000+08:00

whatthefuck.

i'm sick again. fuck it. it's been only 3 weeks since i had a fever and it's back again. and it's another throat infection. and it was worse this time. i was burning up and i had a constant spiltting headache, not to mention bouts of puking.

not only did i feel utterly shitty, my seniors probably think i'm some kind of a slacker now. att c twice in a month, both on duty days. well done aloy, brilliant timing.

and i get 2 days att c and basically it was just a few hours. 'cuz today's my dismount anyways! omg. boy am i pissed or what. arghhhhh..!

gheee i'm pissed. i don't use vulgarities all that often, and not on my blog.

r.a.w.r.

wham.

2006-09-02T13:50:00.000+08:00

OMGWTFBBQ!!

mascherano and tevez are going to west ham!!

-i can't breathe-
and i'm currently speechless.

r.a.w.r.

overdrive.

2006-09-01T23:21:00.000+08:00

it's scary to see a person faint in front of you, hitting the ground cheek-first without bringing even a hand to break the fall - while you stand there helpless, not even being able to move to catch him. yeah, the person in front of me dropped during the rsaf day parade. we were kinda shocked, and we were like 'OUCH' when he hit the ground. i'm just glad it's over (without much screwups).

snakes in a plane is damn gross, damn sick, damn funny and quite scary. heyyy it was quite scary alright. HAHA. i didn't think much of the show when max suggested it, but it was pretty decent in the end. rahhhh black people always crack the funniest lines!

ARGH it's biting my boobs!
AHHH get off my dick!
(HAHAHA!)

i'm so proud of lyntan! that's one paper down! :D

r.a.w.r.

true.

2006-08-31T17:15:00.000+08:00

BLACK LACE AND BOXERS!

decided to pon physio today. 'cuz uh, today's weather was perfect for sleeping in. :D and well, lyn called! (: haha. rahhhh! tsk how can pon school huh!

today was just all about dota. dota dota dota! rahhh! days should be just like that. laze in bed while it pours outside, talking on the phone, dota all day. booking in tonight though. but tmr's half-day so i'm not complaining.

rsaf day is tmr and the parade's finally here. hope everything goes well, and no one screws up. then we can all book out peacefully and enjoy friday and saturday off! (and then book in on a sunday for duty. sheeesh!)

thursday was nice. because i had you with me. (:

r.a.w.r.

catchme.

2006-08-30T21:05:00.000+08:00

hello world! i'm out of camp again! thanks to rsaf day rehearsals. (:

men's health is like damn demoralising. all the dumb front cover models have bodies which are like impossible to build. rahhhhhhh! i wanna put on more muscle and buff up! i want my hawt bod! (which is do not have currently, contrary to what you think! hahaha!) i wanna get my ippt gold and the 200 buckaroos along with it!

rsaf day's finally here. i can't decide whether it's a good or bad thing. there'd be no more rehearsals, no more standing in the sun for hours in long pants/sleeves/gloves/2layersofsocks, no more 'eh sergeant, stop fidgeting! !%#$', no more drawing of wrong weapon for drills. -_-" but but but, that means no more half-days for rehearsals, no more off-days during spare dates, no more 'eh you're on duty ah? i'm booking out now leh! :D'. sighhhh. probably a bad thing.

i want 28th september free. please let me be off.

last stretch of off-days before shift cycle starts. definitely gonna enjoy this.

oh oh and, cm-vs combo is the wicked sick!! :D

play another slow jam.
for my baby and me.

r.a.w.r.

shush.

2006-08-28T23:23:00.000+08:00

hello hello! it still hasn't sunk it yet, but but 27th august is clearly a date worth remembering. (: and and, it's ONE month and ONE day before 28th september. hahaha! (:

had my first full-dress rehearsal today, and that meant wearing my number1s for the very first time. and 30 minutes before leaving i realised that my sleeves had obscene straight iron lines that were super obvious. i had to desperately borrow an iron to iron 'em away. sheesh, lucky fish had an iron.

it feels damn good to be wearing number1s and damn good to be wearing the spec rank! :D :D
(minus the stifling heat and the restricting feeling around your neck)

dropped by town to meet mum for lunch at sakae. and you know what! i said sakae for lunch, but someone heard satay! hahahaha! :D yeah i'm definitely going to town for satay. (: so cute lah. was laughing my head off.

our rsm informed us today that charlie would not get off-days for rehearsals from now, since the higher echleons of FDS think that we're already getting too much off. baloney! so duty on tuesdays and probably off on thursday, if spare rehearsals aren't activated. that means less time with phunk. ): that's bad news.

oh oh and before i forget, i'm like obsessed with a guy! (hahaha! this isn't what it sounds like!) SHAYNE WARD. gosh he has the nicest vocals i've heard in a long long time. he has unbelievable vocal range. boy oh boy, what would i give to be able to croon like that! and he's not bad looking! LOL. i can like serenade my girlfriend with songs like stand by me, back at one yada yada.

shift cycles comes full-fledged after this friday. ): ):

won't 28th september come soon?

r.a.w.r.

found.

2006-08-27T20:15:00.000+08:00

ohmygawd.

i've finally found what i've been looking for. ((:

oh joy!

shag.

2006-08-27T14:19:00.000+08:00

heyyy how come no one commented on the song? such a beautiful song and video la. pfftttt!

i just had my first 24-hour duty, and boyyy was it.. slack! HAHAHA! desk spec was just learning bouts all the stuff and majority of time was just spent lazing in the scc with my ipod and my hp. hehhhh. :D

full dress rehearsal tmr, will be wearing mahh number 1s for the first time! wheee! boy oh boy someone's gonne be excited! :D erb.

one-shag-one.
left-right-left.

my life is boringggg. i want my weekends. i haven't been to town for like ages. sheeesh. i probably forgot how to walk to wisma from orchard mrt already. HAHA. okay no i'm kidding. whoaa i can't remember the last time i did up my hair!

wheee i'm so happpy to be home and online and and.. lynning again! (:

r.a.w.r.

promises.

2006-08-24T18:13:00.000+08:00

my current favourite song. enjoy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d8T3RFb58hg

i had something i wanted to blog about. but i forgot. argh.

okays anyways, i passed my final theory!! walao it's so easy, i could do it with my eyes closed. i mean, who would fail this man! sheeesh.

i've been getting so little sleep recently. and who's fault is it huh huh huh!

ok officially my shift cycle hasn't started but we're doing duty already. just in case the other platoons make noise. so i've been burning weekends, especially saturdays. ): been booking out on weekdays though. with absolutely nothing to do except dota and.... well, lynning. (: shhh.

i dunno whether to hate drills or love 'em. it's bloody shaggggg but at least it beats duty. but then again, duty at super gate is just stoning at the counter in air-conditioning. zzz. the shift cycle really sucks, but then again, i really do not have to right to complain. people like dax have to endure the full-fledged cycle, standing gate for up to 9 hours. geeez, i wouldn't survive that.

i hope i get super gate more. can talk to leftanent vivian! :D

r.a.w.r.

lethargy.

2006-08-19T11:04:00.000+08:00

my head hurts. when i lie down to sleep, when i sit upright to look at the com, when i laze on the couch to watch telly. i've no idea what's causing the pain, and i've no idea how to make it stop. it sucks being sick. really. 3 days of att c is no consolation.

bahh, i've gotta cut my hair this weekend. well, actually i could smoke through, but i might be cutting things a lil too close. hehh.

and and know what, i've rediscovered my love for cherries! :D

everything is f-ed up, straight from the heart.
tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart.

r.a.w.r.

hawt.

2006-08-17T23:47:00.000+08:00

★`mah bimbo. says:
38.8 degreees lehhh
yawn. says:
goodness
yawn. says:
aloy!
yawn. says:
u're hot!
yawn. says:
hahahhaha
★`mah bimbo. says:
erb

yeah i'm hawwt. lol. 38.8 degrees celcius to be exact. but wheee 3 days att c.

it sucks to be sick.

r.a.w.r.

tears.

2006-08-15T01:51:00.000+08:00

"I'm trying to cry but I'm immune. when I do, I release. I release like frustration and sadness and everything, and like I seriously cry maybe once or twice a year and like a tinkle for things that really rock my world.

I once watched a news clip about literacy and children in Canada. The newsreporter asked this little girl what kind of stories she prefered, and she replied that she liked sad ones. When asked why, she answered because they made her cry."

truly.

2006-08-15T01:46:00.000+08:00

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.

I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.

I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
I will be strong
I will be faithful
'Cause I'm counting on

A new beginning,
A reason for living,
A deeper meaning.

And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish, send it to heaven,
Then make you want to cry.

The tears of joy for all the pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection
Of the highest powers.

In lonely hours
The tears devour you.

conclude.

2006-08-12T16:21:00.000+08:00

this is my last bookout before my shift cycle starts. so i'ma take this weekend, and do something nice to lemme remember what normal weekends feel like. sigh. such a sad and miserable life? HAHA. emo emo.

right anyways this week was bloody slack. not that i'm complaining. :D the only thing worth blogging about was drawing my uniform on friday afternoon. wheee! number ones! (: and even better we went to paya lebar to draw it and i booked out straight from there! hahaha. ((: the bad thing is, since we have our uniforms already, rehearsals start on monday. -_- geez.

sigh. osh and kailun both got 8-5. STUPID OSH even has one at paya lebar. -_- what good life. idiots.

planetshakers today. it's the last on my list of good things to come. lol.

WELCOME TO CHARLIE.

★ `APPLE! i think i dreamt you into life.

r.a.w.r.

jeez.

2006-08-09T03:33:00.000+08:00

what kind of impression is the army trying to send out anyway? in bmt, there's so much emphasis on the cultivation of comaraderie among soldiers. section, platoon integrity. and bond we did. bmt, sispec, and now fds. all my section-mates became close after 10 weeks of enduring shit together and we had plenty of fun. but then what happens after the course? the f***ing system splits us all up. shipping each and everyone one of us to different corners of the island.

i mean, i wouldn't be complaining if the posting was practical. but it doesn't make sense! the one that lives in tanah merah stays at tengah while the nearer ones gets shipped off. the supposedly better ones get posted out instead of staying. i mean, wth la, osh is top ten. and he still leaves for paya lebar on thursday.

what kinda double standards are these?

there's so much politicking in tab that there's enough gossip to trump the bloody american elections. so much for infantry leader specialists. we're just the hapless chaps caught in between power struggles and personal vendettas of the higher echeleons of authority.

let ord come faster, god.

r.a.w.r.

geez.

2006-08-09T03:28:00.000+08:00

i bloody hate the airforce manpower department.

we got our posting orders on monday and guess what? 7 outta 9 of my section-mates are f***ing posting out. only me and dax are left, me in charlie and he in delta. sheesh man. osh go sent to ctab, kailun to chompang, ian to fss blah blah.

just when i thought army life was getting less monotonous. and greeaat.. amd has to ship all my close friends away. so they won't be here, and i'll be stuck here till november next year. well done amd.

thanks for making me depressed for the whole of monday.

balls to you. bitch.

r.a.w.r.

army.

2006-08-06T22:41:00.000+08:00

rawwrr!
i hate the location of my camp. seriously sucks major shit. i need 1 hour and 30 minutes to get there from my house, assuming no congestion. and for the past 2 weeks that we were allowed to book in on monday mornings instead of sunday nights. so poor me had to book in on sunday night still 'cuz i have no frickin' way to get there in the morning.

sigh. this is one of those sunday nights. but i'ma book in tmr. waking up at 5, pray that i won't be late.

the theme song for tokyo drift is sooo cute! hahha.
i wonder if you know, how they live in tokyo..

anyways i got myself another piercing on my right ear. shucks this is getting addictive. haha. but then my dad still doesn't know and he'll probably give me another earful. ahh been feeling pretty bad about it, but no harm done i guess. well... no permanent harm.

i hope the dumb rsm won't spot it.

r.a.w.r.

finally.

2006-08-05T12:04:00.000+08:00

i finally found what i've been looking for

and now you know i'm gonna love you more

hold me tight 'cause it's always been you

to think that you were always there

to be my friend and wipe away my tears

now it's clear that it's always been you

it's always been you

finally found - honeyz.

r.a.w.r.

speeed.

2006-08-05T02:47:00.000+08:00

oh.my.gosh.

tokyo drift is like how coooool!

pretty babes, even prettier cars. ahhh one of the best shows of the entire year. really. awww the female lead's so hot, so cuteee! :D and shaun's southern drawl is wayyy cool!

sigh. shows like this makes me wanna drive. but clearly failing my final theory is a step backwards from getting my license.

anyhows, i've been thinking. now that i'm earning my own pay in the army, i'm probably never ever gonna ask for pocket money from my parents ever again. no way. but but.. after army, in university, how in the world am i gonna find cash to use? even if i work, it'll only be possible during holidays, so how am i gonna afford my spending during the school term? sheeesh. no way im asking for pocket money.

r.a.w.r.

gosh.

2006-08-03T17:36:00.000+08:00

noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

I FAILED MY FINAL THEORY!
i knew i should have studied.

pffffffffffffffffttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt!

r.a.w.r.

why.

2006-08-03T11:16:00.000+08:00

sheesh.

at this rate i'll never get my driving license. bloody earliest test date is next jan. pffftt!

you don't know me
you don't even care.

i think i'm going to boston.

xoxo

poc.

2006-08-02T23:24:00.000+08:00

poc!! (:

anyways, poc means 'passing out ceremony'. yups, i'm a commander now. 3SG, air force infantry specialist. wheeee! but today's ceremony kinda lost much of its euphoria. yet another separation for yet another of my platoon. i hope not too many people's gonna post out. stick together till ord yeah?

and i've pretty much landed myself in a shithole. see, i've been chosen for charlie platoon (which is the air force guard-of-honour platoon btw). that means i've to do shift cycles, working 3 days and resting for one. irregardless of public holidays and weekends. so i'll probably have no life until ord. the only compensating factor's probably the GOH duties. HA, ben! i get my tailor-made number 1s too! gee i might even get to speak to the president at next year's ndp.

rawwr! final theory for driving is tmr and i still don't even have the book to study. lol. i'm so dead. how am i gonna get my license by the end of this year...?

ooh ooh! saw dii today. met her a parkway while going to east coast for happy hour. heh. kinda shocked each other. what a coincidence. (: greeeen baggg.

xoxo

god.

2006-07-30T22:40:00.000+08:00

how many of us are guilty of using God as a vending machine?
we worship and praise, donate and tithe, and then pray and tell Him what we want. what we need. what we must have. and when He speaks, we do not listen. we are the own Lords of our lives.

clearly Jesus is the Lord of our lives; every single aspect. our lives should be rooted in Christ.

shallowness is the greatest curse of mankind. small dosages of Christianity act as vaccine for true Christianity itself.

we are not editors of God's word, but executors of God's word.

of these, i am guilty.

i still have much to learn.

xoxo